The reason I haven’t been posting is because I’m stuck.
I want to just WRITE. I don’t know how it is that in seven years of keeping a blog, I still have so many stories I haven’t written down, but I do. I haven’t written about my dolls with the yellow pajamas, or my high school trip to Venezuela, or my five weeks in London, or my five MONTHS in Philadelphia. I haven’t written about my amazing years in my high school’s band, choir, and theater programs. Or how I spent 3 summers at Blue Lake Fine Arts and 2 summers at Interlochen Arts Camp.
I also haven’t written about the things that weigh on my mind on an almost daily basis. The things that happened in my life that I somehow cannot put in the past, no matter how hard I try. Even when I tell myself “you can let it go”, they are just meaningless words. I don’t know if writing it down will help or not, but I can’t seem to figure out how to get started and just WRITE.
The thing is, I just feel stuck. I don’t know what order to write things in. I don’t know how to introduce sensitive topics. I can’t figure out a schedule. Menu Monday? Sure, if I’ve planned a menu and remember to blog about it, but obviously I’m not doing that every week. Friday Fives? My own meme? It’s pretty sad when a person can’t even keep up with their OWN MEME.
I’m trying to get unstuck. And yet all I could think of to blog about today is how I am stuck.