Archive for the ‘Health’ Category

  • It’s That Most Wonderful Time Of The Year Again

    Wednesday, November 4th, 2009

    I’ve tried to deny it this year for some reason. I’ve tried to think that I can get through it on my own, thank you very much, no need to seek professional help or anything. But people, I can’t do it any more. It’s affecting my marriage, my relationship with my kids, and the very core of my mental health and well-being.

    It’s time to call my doctor and get my annual Winter’s-A-Comin’ prescriptions for antidepressants.  PLURAL, I might add. It used to be that just one did the trick, lifted my mood out of black and ugly up into beigey-grey and tolerable.  But two years ago I told my doc that one wasn’t doing it anymore, so she added a second one.  Without them, I sink into a murky place of constantly feeling “sick”, feeling like everyone else is trying to hurt my feelings, feeling put-upon and underappreciated. I don’t like who I am when I get like this, and the people I love don’t either.

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  • Looking for the Happy

    Sunday, October 11th, 2009

    October begins a long, dark slide for me into seasonal depression.

    I take two antidepressants. Those daylight simulator lights don’t really help.

    It takes an incredible amount of mental energy to keep myself from letting it take me over.

    If I can focus on positive upcoming events, like Halloween and Kaitlyn’s birthday and Thanksgiving and Nathan’s birthday and Christmas, keep myself busy with those, it is much better for me than staying in the house under a pile of blankets letting myself feel the melancholy.

    I’m working on getting my professional life under control, and I’m looking for things that make me happy to keep me going through the long winter months. I’m just so grateful that I have this blog, this place to get my thoughts out and to let others know that if you are feeling the same way as me, you aren’t alone.

    Let’s get through it together.

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