It’s been over two weeks since my last post. In that time, every single member of my family was sick, sometimes two at a time. I got so frazzled, I just couldn’t find room in my brain to think about clever posts.
When I started this blog in 2005, I thought of it like an online journal. I wrote about everything from what I was watching on TV to what was happening in politics, with the occasional amusing kid story thrown in. Since that time though, I’ve often felt like my blog was barely in my own hands. In order to get blog traffic these days, in order to stand out among the thousands, I feel like I have to constantly be better, be bigger, be more funny, have a bigger giveaway, post something new every day, post, post, post.
If this was just my online journal, then I would just post whenever I felt like it, even if that meant months in between. But because I need this site to generate at least some income every month so we don’t lose our house, I feel this pressure all the time. I’m sure it’s a common feeling among bloggers who monetize.
But the longer I go without posting, the guiltier I feel, so it’s pretty much a whole bunch of feelings wrapped up in a URL for me. I LOVE this blog, you guys. It’s not the biggest, it’s not the best, it never gets on those “top blogger” lists, but it’s MINE. I created it, I typed every word on it, and when I go to an event or conference and someone says “hey, you’re Elizabeth from Table for Five”, I beam like I won Miss America.
So that’s what’s been going on in my head this past few weeks, the desire to jump back into blogging but without driving myself nuts doing it. I’m going to start by getting a Menu Plan Monday post ready, since I need to make a grocery list anyway. And then I’ll see what else pops into my head that I want to get in a blog post for posterity.
Enjoy your weekend my friends!