Table for Five circa September 2005 – Where it all began

Blogging – I’ve been doing it wrong.

I didn’t make a big announcement or anything – which is unusual for me, I know – but I’ve stopped writing product reviews and hosting giveaways here,  and it wasn’t even a big deal, I just…stopped.  I wanted Table for Five to go back to what it was when it started, a personal blog.

There’s just been one problem. I forgot HOW to write a personal blog. I know that sounds crazy, but it’s true. Personal blogging  in my mind became this HUGE thing, like if I didn’t have profound things to say, there was no point in writing at all. I had built it up in my head that every post had to be a long discourse on deep subjects.

And then this morning, while Kaitlyn was getting ready for school, it hit me.  I was remembering this blog the way it was in 2005 when it started, but was I remembering it correctly?  After the bus came, I opened up my dashboard to All Posts and filtered it to September 2005, and opened up Notepad.  Was my first month of blogging filled with long profound posts on deep subjects?

In between pregnancy updates, this is what I blogged about in September and October of ’05:

hurricane katrina
gas prices
funny post about school lunch
favorite links
stupid political moves
feelings about weight
seeing the movie Serenity
fun google search game
reaction to A.A.P. story about pacifiers
funny joke chris sent me
“Life is Good” – a post about a great day
Looking back when the boys were little
dumb thing I did
politics

And you know what the most surprising revelation was? The average post was only 200 words! I had one post that I counted and it was only 95 words. And it still got comments!

Personal blogging for me does not have to be about deep profound thoughts and hours of writing a day.  I need to stop being afraid that my writing isn’t “good enough” as it is. I need to stop worrying that if my blog doesn’t have the same kinds of posts as others, no one will read it.

When I first started Table for Five, I didn’t think anyone would read it. I thought a blog was like an online diary, that only people I told about it would read it.  When I would write a post and get 4 or 5 comments, it made me feel amazing. But writing a post and getting no comments didn’t stop me from writing again.  And that’s where I got off track this time.

I love Facebook and I respect Twitter, but if I put all my good thoughts there instead of here, I’m missing out on an opportunity to have all those thoughts collected in one place.

So those are my thoughts this morning.  I just may be getting my blogging mojo back, and that’s a good thing.

Words and Photos of my Friend Tre of Thought by Thought

Blogging has brought some incredible people into my life, and one of them is my friend  Tresha (TREE-sha) Thorsen of  Thought by Thought. I’m sharing her words and photos of her here because I want all of you to know just why she is so special to me!

It all started in 2007 when she emailed me to say that she had seen the BlogHer ’07 badge on my blog and was also going to be there and would love to meet me. Despite having each other’s cell numbers, she looked for me that Thursday night, all day Friday, and all day Saturday before finally literally standing right in front of me that Saturday night. I had taken a photo of her Friday morning when everyone got up for “speed dating” without even realizing it was her!

It's Tresha!

Look, it's Tre!

Tre is a healer. She works with people to help them learn to push aside those negative, self-doubting inner voices that hold us back and learn to accept ourselves, to treat ourselves with kindness, to live thought by thought if that’s what it takes. Just being around her makes me feel like I’m okay. She radiates this peacefulness from her beautiful blue eyes. And she is 100% genuine.

BlogHer ’08 was in San Francisco, and Tre was there. I took a commuter train from the airport to a stop near the hotel, and as the train doors opened and I stepped out, I almost knocked Tre off her feet. How coincidental is that, that I just happened to be getting off the train as she just happened to be getting on the same car? She was heading to Berkeley to meet friends so she had to run, but we met up during the conference.

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Since then I haven’t seen her in person, but we’ve emailed and gchatted and facebooked. In fact, what prompted me to write this post is her latest Facebook update. It seems like whenever I am having a crisis about something, Tre has a post that says exactly what I need to hear and think about. Like this one from her Facebook wall today:

Ever feel like you react to life and get overwhelmed by it? Or feel you are beat by it or like your life isn’t going how you want? What if it’s not about reacting but creating? Not being impacted by but causing an impact of your intending… Not about never getting where you wanna be but seeing you are there ( the only where) and allowing for that?

That is exactly the problem I’ve been having for a couple of weeks now. Reacting instead of creating. Holding back instead of moving ahead. Living in the past instead of focusing on now. I suspect many of us feel that way at one time or another.

The saying goes that people come into our lives for a reason. Tre came into my life and I am a better person for it, even if I don’t always remember her advice.  I strongly encourage you to visit her blog thoughtbythought.net and read the page “My Healing Practice” first. If you need help NOW, if you need someone to listen, someone to support you even if things are falling apart, please go to Tre’s blog and click the Need Help Now tab.

if I hadn’t started blogging, I would have never met Tre. And that’s why blogging is so amazing, because the day you publish your first post, you become a part of a community, if you want to be. Open yourself up to new people and new experiences.  Learn what makes your fellow bloggers unique and interesting.  Promote them, support them, and by all means, share them with your readers like I’m doing here!

 

 

Why No, I Can’t Just Leave Things Alone. Why Do You Ask?

I have no excuse. I just saw it in my themes folder and thought hmmm, wonder if I can fix the weird sidebar problem I was having before?

I fixed it, except that something is still wrong with the way the sidebar handles widgets. Some are smushed over to the right and I can’t figure out why yet, but you know I will.

Just thought it warranted at least a mention :)